What am I even doing?
Why am I’m choosing to show up(Youtube, social media, and as of recently, a blog) now?
Trust me, I’ve asked myself the same question.
I’m in the middle of my birthing years, our two boys are at home with me, my husband just started a new job, were planning on moving into a home at the end of the year… so why am I choosing to show up on the internet now?
Here’s my honest answer, one that I’ve been reflecting on for years:
I feel called to share what I’m learning as a woman of faith walking through the 21st century, raising children, preparing meals, working at marriage, caring for our home, and ultimately handling a level of stress that no generation has seen at this age. I’m not an expert, I have zero certifications, not to mention, my grammar is subpar.
But here I am. I’m showing up in the good times, the difficult times and the confusing times to remind women that:
The present moment is the most precious
There’s a devious plan to redirect us from our calling as mothers
Slowing down and working hard is possible
Withholdings are redirections, not losses
Homemaking is our spiritual gift, whether you believe or not
Less is more
Candles(non-toxic ones) make everything better
God is faithful always
I’m while crying writing this. I may or may not be listening to If Only by Andrea Bocelli, but nonetheless, I’m feeling deeply as there is much we’re up against. I truly believe we’re being called to fight against worldliness that has slowly crept into all of our homes and hearts, mine included. Like I said earlier, at this point in my life, it doesn’t make sense to show up and fight. It’s uncomfortable, I question it, my insecurities are being revealed, my energy is precious and limited, but I just can’t find it in me to ignore this opportunity. When God wants us to grow, he makes us uncomfortable. So, here I am.
Lord, guide me, challenge me, withhold from me, and direct my path as I encourage other women. The days are long and the enemy is fierce, but you are stronger. Speak through me as I support and encourage women looking for a life full of purpose, joy and light in a culture that wants darkness to prevail.